January 21, 2016 was my most recent day one. I have struggled through many years of yo-yo dieting and binge eating and I have had many “Day One(s)” in my lifetime.
December 26, 2011 was another very memorable day one. I had just binged my way through the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays. I hated the way I felt and the way I looked. I knew that I needed to change. So, I did what I thought was the most reasonable thing to do: I drove down to the local nutrition store and purchased a supplement. It was a supplement to suppress appetite and give me energy. It worked, very very well.
The combination of this little purple pill and cleaning up my nutrition and consistent exercise I lost 86 pounds in 8 months. During this time I went MONTHS without a binge. Bingeing wasn’t even a temptation. I felt on top of the world. Then towards the end of 2012 word came out that the pill was being banned in the US due to supplement related deaths.
Over the past four years I have struggled with my weight and binge eating. The bingeing did not come back immediately, but it would come on a little at a time. Fast forward 4 years and I have gained a little over 60 pounds back and my binge eating is just as bad as it ever was.
I have done plenty of research on weight loss surgery over the past several months. Everything I have read was indicating that I would be a good candidate for weight loss surgery. BMI over 40 for the past 5 years, constant yo-yo dieting, binge eating, etc. I think the idea of weight loss surgery was my “fall back plan”. Since this was always in the back of my mind, I think that this caused me to binge even more over the past 6 months or so. January 21, 2016 I checked my insurance to see if weight loss surgery was covered and what the out of pocket cost would be. What I found out was devastating. Absolutely no coverage. Not even a dime. My fall back plan was not a feasible fall back plan.
January 21, 2016 will be my last day one.
Today is January 22, 2016 and I have been binge free for one day. I started out my day at 4:15 AM with a trip to the gym for a date with the treadmill. I did a walk run combination for 30 minutes.
I have counted calories in the past and I have become a slave to the scale in the past. I will track what I’ve eaten and my progress on the scale, but I will not let these two things define success. I am more concerned with overcoming binge eating and consistency working out at this stage in my journey. When I find success on these two areas of my life, the scale and weight loss will follow.