Struggle.

I have been quiet over the past few days. I have stumbled big time and I am very disappointed in myself. Since Saturday at lunch I have stumbled into several days of overeating and periodic bingeing. I have not tracked my food. I have not exercised. As a result these feeling of regret and anger are swirling around me. Why is this such a real problem for me?

I feel that the time has come for some external help. I am trying to use this blog as a way to provide some level of accountability. However, I think I need something more of a reciprocal accountability. Meaning, if I go quiet I think I need someone to check in on me and keep me accountable. I have looked into OA, but the times and locations for the meetings do not work out with my schedule. So, I have been contemplating joining TOPs. I just feel like I need some in person accountability.

Is there anyone out there who has struggled with binge eating/emotional overeating and has had success in conquering it without the use of weight loss surgery? I would really like to hear your story. Even if it is just a comment below. I am feeling a little hopeless right now. Will I ever be able to have a normal relationship with food?